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Not sure why you feel it necessary to introduce yourself in every article as a former elite anything. In your articles you don't seem like a jerk with a dark soul. You just come across as a real buzzkill.
Glad to read you were able to control the beast within, but as a former elite gymnast you should know recall that even if you don't stick your landings you have to flash that smile to the judges.
You'll probably be screaming at this letter in a fit of rage, but it's just a game, no matter how elite they are. Yeah, that means that all the physical and mental scarring you and today gymnasts incurred during your ascents to elite status in the grand scheme of things ultimately was without lasting meaning. So what. The universe didn't implode when you stopped competing. You didn't have to get a perfect score so a bus load of kids wouldn't die.
Most well adjusted people, the ones you're probably watching these events with, probably just want to be entertained. And unless you're tying them up and forcing them to watch with you, they probably enjoy your company.
That beast is called immaturity. Keep learning.