Letters to the Editor
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March in Minnesota must be very bad...
Oh dear. March in Minnesota must be very bad if its got Keillor doubting his faith.
Well, at least for the moment, welcome to the agnostics club.
I was like you for many years. I believed in a God, but couldn't decide exactly what that meant. I only knew that most organized religions seemed like hypocritical bunk. Eventually, I figured out that either there was no God, or that if there was he or she didn't give a damn about the daily activities of your average human.
In the end, I've found that being an atheist to be more fulfilling and "real" than being a Christian. Once you discard the notion of an afterlife, you realize that all we have is each other right now. Doing good things such as "community service" and just being an all around decent person is something you do because you honestly want to do it, not because you are trying to get into heaven. This is not a test or practice run. I'm sure that agnosticism and atheism seem like a black hole of meaningless uncertainty to most devoutly religious people, but I assure you that its not.
I suspect you'll regain your faith about the time the April showers melt that last bit of gray snow and turn everything green again. Nothing is lovelier than spring in the midwest (I grew up in Ohio). However, if it doesn't, welcome to the club!