A lot of it is fear. The more you deal with whites in a small town, the more danger you can be in. In Slidell, most blacks also avoided whites, despite integrated churches, out of han fear. Our housing was still segregated, with a fence down my street to separate the white from the black side.

For some of my older relatives, even well-meaning whites can be dangerous. They fear one misunderstanding will lead to a false accusation of something. The "segregation" is far less voluntary it may seem.

I rode to bus to my Catholic school, where I had white friends. But I could not be invited to their birthday parties.There was no attempts by school officials to integrate black music at dances or really to make my generation feel welcome. People of my generation and older tend to be suspicious in small towns.

Where I am, the whites I know are more well-meaning and open. Class is far more openly discussed and understood. Mt mother fears I will be falsely accused of something. She fears my husband will be accused.

In some small towns in the South, if a black runs for office, bad things happen. That happened in my family. Even in a segregated school, tracking tends to be racial, not score based. The only way to get ahead is to get out. I got out.

Music is cross racial. Join a choir. Seriously. Learn an instrument. It works. Or volunteer for the Y. There are people who want to meet you.

I want you to find a community. I know how hard that can be. I traveled between my integrated life in Ohio and my segregated life in Louisiana for decades. I wish you luck!

Obama's views are way outside of the mainstream. It's only the media and the urban populations who support him, and they are a small, yet vocal, minority. The liberals should wake up and smell the coffee: your average American is too fundamentally smart and decent to allow such an inexperienced charlatan to tell them what to do with their own time, money, and thoughts. Look at the Reid-Pelosi Congress: it would be a joke if it weren't so important. Obama has never run anything of significance and his time and opportunities in the legislatures, such are they were, appear to have been used to accomplish nothing.

And whatever validity you think you had in defining yourself by obsessively spending your life on this blog will just be blown off in one day. No matter how much you desecrate the language by the month.

Ah, couldn't happen to a nicer waste of carbon.

By the way, I am sure I am not the only one wondering how you are subsidizing all this time here 24/7.

It wouldn't, KLYTUS, be government, um, benefits, would it?

Good point. Quite possibly so. Foolish too. It's traceable after all retroactively. Note every time it gets locked out for it's profanity it's back with a new alias.

With that monumental chip on your shoulder and the visceral anger, I am not sure why you are here posting at this site. Not that it isn't a free country and all, but I have been reading the site for at least as long as Glenn Greenwald has been posting, so, somehow I missed those 3 other posts of yours in the last year.

Did anything I wrote justify your concluding that I think my friends and relatives are dumber than I? Perhaps you are internalizing again. I think their opinions are wrong, as are yours. But I don't resort to scathing invective to point that out.

Your posts document clearly what has happened to the political dialogue in this country. To understand that, look no further back in history than the Reagan Administration and the demise of the Fairness Doctrine which enabled the rise and dominance of the free speech of conservative talk radio, which feeds hate and intolerance in great doses to its listeners, who mostly happen to be Republicans. Thus, we have a Republican party campaigning with lies, hate, and innuendo as their preferred weapons of choice. Turning the word "liberal" into a dirty word. Have you heard that McCain ad in which the word liberal is breathily spoken so as to invoke EVIL?

Please, get some help. Someone filled with this much anger needs it. Hope I got the name right this time. Sorry about the misspelling before.

There obviously IS no measurable vote for Nobama. Klytus/Jefferson/payne, ad nauseum was asked the same question for months and predictably all it did was spew profanity and venom. A true Gollum but with a lower iq.

It and the other frothing idiots are too ignorant to realize their zealotry and intolerance and out of mainstream postions are what drove one constituency after another out of the Dem party.

This time they've driven out single working women and it's dead and it's NOT coming back.

Given that the GOP will now have a permanent lock on EVERYTHING in the country for the rest of our lives, you'd think these geese would at least be smart enough not to be threatening revolutions and civil wars online. (they ARE sooooooo pathetic). And as if they're leaving the country would be a loss. LOL.

I never thought of that.

Choir is out of the question however. The only creature who can stand for me to sing is the dog. When my daughter was a baby and I tried Tura Lura Lura, she wept.

You are right about a community though. I may actually have to move to get one. If I didn't hate driving in city traffic so bad, I would get up three hours early to attend the UU Church in Dallas.

thank you for sharing a little about your life. About having to move between different worlds.

If you ever want to read a good book on struggles with identity, I highly recommend Richard Rodriguez's Hunger of Memory. I sometimes think the hardest thing that people have to do in order to grow is to move away from the (sometimes limited) knowledge and identity within their families. For poor people it is sometimes like stepping into thin air.