Letters to the Editor
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Get thee to therapy ASAP...
LW, you're blowing off your frustration and anger through booze (and from the sound of how demanding your family is, it makes sense you'd go this passive-aggressive route.) But all you are going to do by drinking is dig yourself in deeper--and make yourself dependent on roles you hate. (As well, being an "artist" is no excuse to be an alcoholic--if anything, drinking destroys creativity and the freedom to create.) Find a good therapist; figure out how you got where you are (If you didn't want to be a wife and mother, why did you go that route? You can't blame your husband or mom totally for "trapping" you in this way.); figure out what you need to live a constructive, happy life; and make a plan to make positive change. That may mean divorcing and letting your husband have custody of your son; that may mean hanging with your marriage until you have made some money from technical writing. But whatever it takes, it will be far more productive than stewing your life away in alcohol and anger.