Letters to the Editor
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Oh, honey
Therapy, therapy, therapy.
You've gone through a lot and you're having to deal with anger, but you've had no proper examples of how to handle it. If you can, get therapy to help you deal with your anger. You need to learn how to deal with your feelings without "stuffing" them (I only say that because I am learning to do the same).
The fact that you are aware of this means, to me, that you have recognized your issues, and those can be worked on.
You can change. My mother grew up with a horribly, physically abusive father, and she changed. She broke the cycle. It can be done.
If you can afford to get therapy, think about it (there are sliding scales if you don't have insurance - I did some for $15 a session, out of a university program). If not, there are books, and friends, and cognitive therapy that you can learn on your own. It can be done.
I wish good luck to you.