Letters to the Editor
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Friendships are Like Seasons
If you've always been the same way, your friends are used to you. Sometimes friendships end for reasons you don't even know--people drift away. Consider that your friends may not be responding because a. something in their life is too much to handle; b. they may think badly of you (mistakenly); c. you grew apart. You mentioned you still have a couple friends--ask them if you have changed for the worse recently. Apologize to the friends who are not responding (an apology, even if you don't know what it's for, does not hurt you, it shows you are trying to be a good person, and it doesn't cost anything) in case you inadvertently hurt them, and ask if there is something wrong. If you don't get a response, let it go. You have a strong personality, you will make more friends. Just take to heart what you have learned from your old friends. Alternatively, you can ask your ex-girlfriend to check with the nonresponsive friends, if she is willing to do so.
Also, therapy with a really good person helps in keeping demons under control. On a side note, Cary asked if your family messed you up, but you said family helps, so you're lucky. I would love to trade mother/father stories with Cary and other parent-trap sufferers online here if we could have a forum. Cary had egg cartons stacked in his homes, I had cats stacked in my homes and wacky schemes to win a lottery and live overseas. Can't blame the family for my own choices, but damn, it didn't help. Peace, brother.