Letters to the Editor
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1.) Let him go 2.) Go enjoy gettin' it on with everyone else
1.) If this guy is as amazing as you say he is, then clearly you do not deserve him or his love.
You clearly do not know how lucky you are - and therefore you will never value and respect him as much as HE deserves. And yes - it seems inevitable you will cheat on him at some point.
Let him go, so that he can find happiness with a deserving woman.
Don't take this personally, please; it's just that there are so many single women out there - just as smart, sexy, confident etc. as you are (if not more so) - who are willing/ready/able to be faithful to a wonderful, decent guy...
...And since it is apparent that you will only hurt him if you marry him - (probably turning him as bitter and misogynistic as some of those Broadsheet trolls), DO THE RIGHT THING and end your engagement.
2.) Afterwards, go have fun and sow your wild oats. Maybe you'll find out that you are polyamorous or promiscuous; maybe you'll find out that your inability to be faithful is not about sex/sexuality, but about emotional fear...or sadism in yourself.
And maybe, just maybe, if/when you've sown enough oats, you'll feel an urge to be in a lasting relationship with someone...
...Or perhaps you will reach an age/appearance where nobody deems you as attractive as you once were - and as the opportunities for fucking dissipate, you'll have no choice but to settle anyway for whatever man or woman still wants you.
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Whatever YOUR outcome will be, Mr. Nice Guy will find happiness with someone else. So get yourself some good karma already - & let him go.