Letters to the Editor
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Find a muse
Find something or someone inspiring. If you look outside, they are all around. I suffer from stinkin' thinkin' too. Waking at 3 AM today ( the last LW's terror affected me ) thinking about all the sh**heads I've known or crossed paths with and how it sucks they exist. People who do things to other lives that are so evil and damaging. Then, realizing they are just there to inspire in a different way, I slipped into workout clothing and going to beat a heavy bag until I feel lighter.
Fight like hell LW, never ever give up. Ground yourself in a pool of sweat and feel the burn. Your feet are on the ground, your breath is jagged, your muscles are sore and you can't think anymore. Then write one sentence.
That's one of a million ways you can go.
You've gotta love the absolute truth in what Cary wrote too. Some days, some weeks, it's OK to just be and not do anything extraordinary. We are all in progress, in process and it's good just to have this chance to inhabit this body and be here, now.
I've got Same Old Blues by Freddie King replaying in mind while I read your letter. Better yet, check out some gospel music... or maybe something like Gene Harris's version of Stevie Wonder, called "As". If that doesn't make you feel good, just for 5 minutes, I don't know what to say. I am putting that one on RIGHT now. Chills I tell ya, chills. He must be one of the muses. Gene!
It's OK to be blue, but maybe not so much if a part of you is outside your own body. I know people who never seem blue, in fact I think they might be pod people. Many of my closest friends have at one time been through this terrifying darkness and come out better. I am telling you, it's the people who don't get low who are scary.