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She can't handle intimacy with you, is why she rambles around. You neither, with her; though you would claim, perhaps loudly, that you want nothing more than that. I can tell you don't because you are totally centered on her and have no interest in your life and your being. See, one can only get as close to someone else as they can get to themselves.
I don't know what to recommend, but this may be a start.
I like to be with people who like to be with me.
Best,
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