Letters to the Editor
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Elegant answer, but incomplete
Cary has done a very literary job of summing up the frustrations of the workaday world.
But is this the whole story?
It depends on what you want. There are no doubt people who know that you've done little or no work. They have had to cover up or compensate or maybe just know and don't say anything. Believe me, they're talking about you.
You are a burden on those people and don't have their respect. Maybe that doesn't bother you, which is fine.
You say you have friends there, which makes it hard to leave. Maybe you do. But you may well have work-friends, friends who fade away when you no longer have the job in common. If the latter, then you'll make new work-friends if you change jobs.
The bigger issue is that you say you have trouble focusing, can't make yourself do work you hate. Could be that's just normal ennui, 'cause you're in the wrong job. Maybe something is really a bit wrong with you.
Wouldn't hurt to explore that a bit further. If it's a biological problem, medication may work wonders for you. If it's biological, it's probably affecting other aspects of your life outside of work.
If you're the kind of person who feels driven to "make a difference" or if you're someone who really feels that it's important to be fulfilled at your work, continuing this way is going to suck the soul right out of you.
If the friends matter to you more than whether you do the work or not, if you're someone who only works for the dough and in 40 years you're not going to care that you were just a lazy ol' cog in the machine, keep doing what you're doing and just tell Cary, it's cool--never mind.