Letters to the Editor
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I did it
I was in the "I did it" camp, and I don't think it's an accident that many of us were. I feel like one of the major themes of the episode was Tony's unconscious need to confess. Even after his "I've murdered friends before" dream, after which he awoke worried that he'd said it aloud in bed with Carmella, he went into therapy with a watered-down version of that same confession.
He's murdered friends before, but then there was at least someone in his crew in who knew. This act trumped those by a mile. There was not one person he could tell who wouldn't see the act for being exactly as monstrous as it was.
That's why I think his trip on peyote provided him with something else: Remember his fixation on Kelly breast feeding her and Christopher's baby? It reminded me of the hallucination Tony had at the end of season one in which he happened upon an Italian mother nursing her baby. I think his trip provided him with a small moment of symbiosis while his world fell apart around him.