This man is not serious about you and so does not deserve to live with you, not matter how much he might have insisted. You are not a teenager anymore, don't act naive... its not at all flattering or useful for a thirty year old woman.From my accounting all it adds up to is disrespect and selfishness from this so called "boyfriend." but aided and abetted by a woman , YOU, who didn't make it quite clear that this is a painful act from a man she wants to be in a relationship with. I wouldn't even leave a forwarding address, better to just forget you ever thought so little of your own needs and feelings.

Speak up for yourself next time and you won't have to be writing letters to find out if its okay if your boyfriend spends a week with a MySpace chicklet AFTER he's already gone.

All the objective opinion in the world mean NOTHING if YOU find it hurtful.

i just attended a student art show at my local college. 5 of the fifteen pieces dealt with anguish that hinted or outrightly suggested suicide, including one that featured a chair with a shotgun at it's feet facing a black plexiglass. So many of us in pain and no one to unburden ourselves to, in this day of pharmaceutical solutions that attempt to improve our "functionality". We aren't machines!.

The medical world has convinced us that it is the individual , not a society in which people are low on the priority scale. it very much reminds me of the way the government insists on the "lone gunman" theory in the the case of JFK, MLK or RFK.

In some ways suicide is like all death it is just lying down and not gettig up again. Depression is the most total exhaustion, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is what is left when all the fight is gone and you don't want to have to realize that life IS continuous strugle, because you long for peace as others long for love.

I've often wished that when my longing for rest makes even the most mundane task the equivalent of climbing Mt St Helen's that there could be a sleep cure, a very long sleep cure of months in which I could so totally sink into oblivion that all my old cells would have finally been replaced and I would wake up deeply rested and excited to see the first light of day like a baby does.Perhaps this rest is what suicide seeks.

How much energy did it take Mr Wallace to "carry on" his false functonality for his colleagues and loved ones.? That is exactly what is so exhausting - the pretending . Perhaps some people need to hibernate , like bears.

if Rep La Brizzo can help it.

Make it permanant birth control because poor women's lives will never change and the Representative is doing all he can to make sure they never do. Lets throw in a few mandated vasectomies for those now broke hedge fund managers while we're at it. God forbid they and their kind should multiply. Look how much they're costing the taxpayer!

that couldn't stop saying things in a loud voice like how could a woman with five kids govern? And if she can't keep her own kid in check how could she manage the country and other absolutely misogynist things because since when do we ask if RFK could have governed since he had 11 kids or that a pregnant 17 yr old is the yardstick by which we measure governmental competency? ( how authoritarian could she be really, if you think about THAT?) Hell I'm happy we broke through that stigma, even if it was done by a Republican. And all this misogynistic ranting was from a woman who I considered progressive , but was apparently

only partisianly open minded.

Hate drilling, corruption and lobbyists ?- don't vote for her and tear her up over her politcal stance but whats up with all this personal stuff. I mean really, her hair?

You didn't really believe all women were an embodiment of the Goddess that would only rule by concensus and usher in an era of peace, did you?

Oh you did?...

Feeling your broken heartedness is proof that you've become truly human. It's tenderizing and softening and makes you really see at our transitory lives, which if we didn't realize how short they were ,could cause us to be ungrateful and harsh with ourselves & others.Its when we realize how many others are walking silently around with their own fractured souls and the full impact of what that means, that we can truly begin find the courage to understand that really we're not so different as our opinions and styles might lead us to believe. Out of this pain we can heal others as we heal our own pain.

There is a Buddhist practice called Tonglen in which we actually intensify and breathe in our darkness, pain and claustraphobia and then breathe space and light into that tense tight space, blessing ourselves . We repeat this exercise for friends we know who may be experiencing pain, then acquanitences and finally enemies, Its the only thing I' ve found that has given any relief to the seperate and painful existence I sometimes delude myself into believing is our fate.