...the following statement is true; the preceding statement is false. That is all you've been suggesting to me. That's all anyone could come away with. This is a crazymaking troll factory. Only someone as ill as myself could appreciate the labrynthian extent to which an otherwise intelligent person would go to avoid accepting responsibility for their actions.

Of all the things that cause you to find fault with anything or anyone at any time, you never once considered it might be your own guilt.

Then you launch into another broken record retort.

No wonder FW1 left to explore my flank. And her own. If I am the angry sad one, you are every bit as angry and sad as me. I understand a lot of attorneys have this sort of problem.

Whoring propeller head syndrome (WPHS)...a guilt-based condition typified by the repeated projection onto others the self-same diagnosis and etiology from which they suffer. Incapable of self doubt, they project this state of affairs onto others, including Eric Schaeffer. Incapable of introspection of any great depth, they project this observation onto others, even ascribing the blame for their perception of this observation onto others who may, or may not, suffer from this same symptomology.

The utility of this parasitic condition is that it makes other people responsible for the perceptions of the perceiver. It acts and serves as a governor on the intellect, keeping the sufferer's ego state stable unless or until devastating emotional, intellectual, spiritual or physical trauma punctures the sufferer's perceived ego state. This causes the sufferer to live in almost constant state of intellectual seige.

Why does anyone need proof of what's obvious? You're an attorney, for god's sake. How do people get "that way" unless they are constantly sharpening their teeth on the hides of those who are less articulate than themselves?

I understand your fetish for evidence, love, but it is not possible to perceive what one refuses to perceive.

The evidence is everywhere and in all things. How a person does anything is how they will do everything.

Mea culpa. A thousand times.

Eric Schaeffer IS a liar, a thief, a douchebag, a slimeball, a weirdo and a con. He is also an honest, respectful, and mundane champion of the arts. It depends on the day you catch him and it depends on your own internal state as to how you "see" him.

Let go of your own need to have a linguistically-bound reality for a moment and allow people to be as limitless as their Creator. Just for a moment. Words and concepts are just maps and the maps, dear one, are not the territory.

What is good about Life always persists and shines through for eternity. What is problematic about Life is our inability to accept that we are free to manufacture imperfection and limitation at any time. Of course we are confined to temporality when we do this...we can only threaten our own hegemony so far.

Everyone...absolutely everyone...is a whole lot grander a creature than any of us ever imagined.

Yet we are afraid to allow ourselves to be as vulnerable as our Creator because we have confused what we have made with what has already been created. The Boss can afford to be vulnerable. We reflect the Boss when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable.

Eric Schaeffer wants to be the Boss. We all do, in our own way. But we try to use specialness -- egocentricity -- to accomplish this task. Of course this tack must always fail to achieve its goal. There is nothing about Oneness -- Unity -- that can ever be special or unequally shared.

But will any of us STOP trying to be the Boss?

Nooooooo.

Therein lies the rub and the source of all our guilt. It radiates out from this central fact and appears to manifest in "special" ways, but the core is still the same. We want to be the Boss because we can feel and experience this divine presence within ourselves even when we don't have words to express the nature of this presence.

Watch Eric Schaeffer deconstruct himself on film. You can see that he is aware that he is doing this. You can see the almost proud manner with which he displays his brokenness as if it were nothing.

Because it is.

What I don't think Eric realizes, yet, is that everything else he values is also nothing. One can't expect to value one aspect of nothingness over any other without appearing to be completely out of one's mind.

And he is. But so is everyone else. In their own special way. Some are quiet, some are loud. Some manifestations we prefer over others because we can identify with their particular angle on the basic problem that befalls everyone.

So one either believes in ultimate unity apriori, or one does not. If one does, this all makes perfect sense. If one does not, then everything just seems to go on fragmenting into infinity with no hope of order and only entropy to look forward to. Such was the intended meaning behind the commandment, "thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain." When God commands, it's not like we have a REAL choice. We really can't take the basic nature of the universe as we believe it to exist like we are putting on a pair of underwear. There are definite effects to our beliefs about reality.

I'm being selfish and self indulgent here. It would best if I let you figure the rest out for yourself and in your own words. That's always more fun.