LW, it was good advice then, it's good advice now.

Don't worry about trying to be hip. Just pursue what you love, follow your own interests, enjoy what makes you happy & provides real growth as an individual. The genuine hipsters of our culture never worried about it, they just did their best to be themselves. It's the phonies who worked like hell to build that hip facade. And today, it's a commodity -- do you want to be a walking, talking embodinment of what someone else says you're supposed to be? Do you really need someone else to validate your individuality? Do you really need that label attached to your person?

Just be yourself. Discover who & what that self is, and live it as honestly as possible. That's the key.

First of all, thank you to all of the previous posters for such thoughtful, heartfelt responses. This is what I come to Salon to find!

LW, I'll just echo what the previous posters have said: stop worrying about being a hero. It's always easier to dream of being Great than to actually & simply be Good. There's nothing wrong with grandiose fantasies, as long as you recognize that they ARE fantasies, somewhat ridiculous but satisfying, the way tasty junk food is satisfying. And that's all they are. The only good they'll do you in the real world is if they inspire you to get up & do something concrete.

Your only real problem right now is that you're young & undecided. Clearly the prospect of choosing one particular path is scaring you, because you fear it'll shut off all other possibilities. While life isn't as drastically either/or as all that, it's true that you will have commit yourself to something eventually -- and one path is better than no path. There's still time for you to change direction in the future, if it comes to that.

May Sarton once wrote that people who want to become saints never do; true saints are too busy doing their work, helping others, to think about themselves that way. It's the same with being a hero. It's not something you aspire to be. It's something that may happen to you while you live & work & do all the routine, everyday things. It's been said before: character is what you do when nobody's watching. So is heroism. Stop thinking about how you want others to see you. That's not heroism, that's ego.

You don't have to live some Big Story For The Ages, you know. Maybe that big story is all the little, seemingly boring & banal stories of everyday life added up together. It's far more important to be a basically good, decent person, probably unnoticed & unrewarded by others, than it is to live on a self-designed pedestal in a perpetual spotlight. Funny thing is, most people won't think of that as heroism. They'll just think it's self-absorption.

It's good, even vital to have dreams. But it's far more important to live them. And that means choosing some & letting others go. Life is precious & all too short -- don't waste too much more of it!

If you want to create, then create! But as previous posters said, don't do it to become rich or famous, because the odds of that happening are very slim indeed. Do it because you love it, because it changes you, makes you become more of who you truly are, opens new vistas for you, lets you know your own soul. That's what it's about, LW.

For me it's writing & art. I'm 53, published a couple of fantasy novels in my 20s, and picked up a paintbrush for the first time a couple of years ago. There's no gallery exhibit in my future, but I'm enjoying myself, I'm learning a lot, and I've discovered a real talent for collage that I'm nurturing & exploring. Meanwhile, I'm working on a new novel, which may or may not get published. There are no guarantees & I certainly don't ask for any. The work should be its own reward.

If you're the only one who ever hears your music, you've already accomplished something: you've followed through & been true to your dream of creative work. If only a few other people hear it & like it, you're already ahead of the game. Anything more is gravy. Most likely, unattainable gravy.

As for those mindless drones ... look a little more deeply, LW. They're people, just like you, with dreams & fears & losses & hopes, just like you. Get rid of that delusion about The Artiste vs. The Robot. Wallace Stevens wrote astonishing poetry while working in an insurance office. If you can create music that's even 1/100 as good as his poems, you'll be remarkable.

But you'll never know unless you actually start creating the music. Now.